SHE   WHO   REGRETS

by Silver Moon



I crave for blood
I crave for life
But is it life that I shall take?
I see your fear
I hear your cries
I wonder...Am I the giver of death?
Oh, what a vicious animal I am
Oh, how it pains my empty soul
I know no life
I know no death
And it is I who feeds on the innocence of the life God gives
Thy told me to kill without regret
But regret I must
As I see the deeds I do through eyes that no longer see the light they once saw
Conscience, regret, and love I knew
And I cannot give these up
And I cannot either give up this life I'm eternally bound to
Regret is sweet and so is pain
But love is a gift much sweeter
Until it is absorbed and then it turns bitter like vinegar
I once gave that bittersweet gift.
I gave it freely and in purity,
And the passion burned deep into my soul
But then was blown away
Like ashes in the fall wind
Those memories leave thier price
leaving me heavy with the burden of an exsistance without emotion...except regret
A killer am I? No
Vampire is not the word
For I crave joy and peace and Love
Does a parasite know peace? No
And yet, to need the darkness
to taste the spirit and never have a soul
to quench my bloody thirst...there lies my peace
The same blood that makes me regret
gives me serenity as it courses through my body.
I long to see the sunrise
To see the ocean and the blue sky
To feel again the waarmth of day
Or the warmth of love
I long to hear the laughs and not screams
To see the smiles and not the horrid faces twisted into expressions of convoluted horror.
I long to walk amid the throngs
To feel a tear slowly descend across the pale cold face that shows only the internal agony it feels.
I long to feel the strength of a lover holding me tight
to keep me warm.
But the cold I feel
is from within
And no lover could warm an empty soul.


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